Recently, at a beginner’s meeting a member with 58 days of sobriety was sharing about his day. He was coming home from work on the NYC subway system. When the train pulled into the station, the doors opened, but did not close. He then heard the conductor announcing that the train would be stuck in the station for the next 5 to 10 minutes. After a long day at work, he felt pretty frustrated.
Then he remembered that something like this had happened to him once before. On that occasion, he also had about 58 days. He felt so frustrated and angry back then that he got off the train and immediately went to his drug of choice. He said it was the worst five hours he had ever encountered in his life. With great effort, he came back into the program.
Now, he was sitting on a train with 58 days and the doors of the subway car were wide open. Once again he felt tired and frustrated. This time he stayed put until the doors of the train closed. His day was winding down as he related this story at the meeting.
All of us will face daily challenges. We will feel angry, frustrated and fearful. As long as we don’t get off the train and just wait for the doors to close, we can complete our sober journey.
Personal Reflection: What tools do I use to stay on the train?