We had a rude awakening when we became sober. Yes it’s true that a lot of the drama we experienced in our lives dissipated once we gave up our drug of choice. That part was certainly good. What we discovered to our chagrin was that many of our old bad habits still dogged us. Just because we stopped using, didn’t mean that a lot of that negative behavior which we had collected along the way would magically disappear. In fact we found the opposite to be the case. It became quite a challenge for us to modify or give up some of those habits. For example, we might have peppered our conversation with profanity in the past. Most likely this predated our drinking or drugging careers. Perhaps we had used profanity to fit in or to prove how macho we were. In the program we attended meetings where the group chair would announce that, “we refrain from profanity at this meeting”. After our share, from the way people were looking at us we realized that our profanity habit had kicked in. Once we moderated our tongue, we uncovered lots of other bad habits that needed attending to. Part of our healing took place as we shattered some of these negative behaviors.
Personal Reflection: What habit of mine still needs attending to?