At a thousand meetings, from a thousand qualifications, the same thing was said over and over again. It sounded something like the following. “Growing up, I never felt comfortable in my own skin. I felt like a square peg in a round hole. I was the one who was afraid to get on the dance floor, ask someone for a date or try out for the team”.Then I took my first drink or drug. Everything changed. Suddenly I had the courage to do almost anything. For the first time in my life, I felt comfortable in my own skin”.
Initially, our attempts at self-medication worked. Over time, we discovered that we had to increase our intake of our drug of choice to achieve the same results. At some point, all of the old feelings returned and our usage kept increasing with serious life consequences.
In sobriety we are learning to accept life on life’s terms. We are becoming more comfortable in our own skins. Not through self-medication but through engaging in 12 step work, sharing at meetings and doing service. We have discovered that there are no quick fixes; but sobriety creates changes which become a fabric of our very being.
Personal Reflection: What benefits have I reaped from sobriety?